Physically I felt you there...
But emotionally and lovingly you're not.. Not like it was used to be. I didn't sleep well. Those thoughts were constantly running through my mind once I shut my eyes.. Of course, that means the those weren't totally good ones. Sigh.... You going for cruise for 3 days. Don't know when we gonna see each other again... And the moment that you said you don't want to be that close now, it broke my heart, but it was kept inside... The pain and the disappointment... I can't express pissed and angry or even disappointed about it, because you get angry and unhappy later that I had emotions.... Which left me no say and I just can't live with it going your way all the time. 

This month that I gave both of us to make improvements, I think, doesn't really would change how you are now and how was I used to be and still to be now. So... There wouldn't be any positive results from what I'm seeing now... 

I see two people belong to two different world...