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, Friday, November 26, 2010 Y God wants me to know everything, something that I've been kept in the dark. Now that I've know it. I couldn't forgive and forget... Not until if I could care less for my entire life without you appearing in my mind and make my tears roll on and on...
Screw my fking life... It is so difficult to forget... I need to forget, but I just couldn't.. I still love you... T.T published @ 5:51 PM , Monday, November 22, 2010 Y Recieving texts and calls from your love one is irritation!
What more can I say...! Just prefect! Asking so many shit! Is the only way to let yourself know WTF is happening and stop fucking avoiding every fucking thing that you don't want to face now! FUCK IT! Having being hurt by those words and action. Tears would roll... It's no longer just tears. It's a kind of HATRED AND ANGER! The last time I'm gonna put in my effort... Love it, treasure it! If not fuck it!~ F O F M L! FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THOSE EXCUSES AND BULLSHIT! published @ 8:32 PM , Tuesday, November 9, 2010 Y "I'm Sorry" is a statement.
"I won't do it again" is a promise. "How do I make it up to you" is a responsibility. Don't love someone for their past nor their future. Love them for who they are today. Letting go might be hard yet the best way to let another stay. Remember: "No two things can occupy the same space at the same time. Sometimes love is unfair. The more u sacrifice, the more u get hurt. Even you’ve given your best, still not enough. Once u find someone who loves u truly.. NEVER let him/her go, cuz when u lose, you'll never find the same kind of person again. It's best to wait for the right person to come, because life is too short to be wasted on the wrong one. Sometimes, its better to be a fool to go after what we want & need, rather than to regret everything in the end because we never even tried. Guys will always be able to make girls cry. But, if a girl can make a guy cry.... She must really mean something to him. "Sorry" is not just a word. It supposed to be a real action accompanied by a determination to not repeat the same mistake twice Some love quotes.. Thought I could write it down in my blog. published @ 9:17 PM , Wednesday, November 3, 2010 Y Physically I felt you there...
But emotionally and lovingly you're not.. Not like it was used to be. I didn't sleep well. Those thoughts were constantly running through my mind once I shut my eyes.. Of course, that means the those weren't totally good ones. Sigh.... You going for cruise for 3 days. Don't know when we gonna see each other again... And the moment that you said you don't want to be that close now, it broke my heart, but it was kept inside... The pain and the disappointment... I can't express pissed and angry or even disappointed about it, because you get angry and unhappy later that I had emotions.... Which left me no say and I just can't live with it going your way all the time. This month that I gave both of us to make improvements, I think, doesn't really would change how you are now and how was I used to be and still to be now. So... There wouldn't be any positive results from what I'm seeing now... I see two people belong to two different world... published @ 7:02 AM , Y I had my day today with Brenda and her family. It was kinda nice in the start, everything went smoothly.. But I don't feel like how I use to feel Brenda last time, 2months ago... Sigh... When going to the dinner, during and after... I dont feel really in the mood... Felt like neglected. Actually had been feeling neglected for the past 2 months and with the now brenda, it doesn't get any better. I felt that I have no chance to say to her or she doesn't want to stick to me... Even when I had something to say... She just blow me off and gives me the feeling of she's not interested. Don't bother listening... And kinda give me a (pissed cum unhappy) look whenever I shared my feelings to her. And avoid it sometimes. I dont feel her love... Really i don't... For the whole night, thoughts were running in and out of my mind.. My parents... And mostly about us... There was even this time Brenda was just acting so immature... Just want to have fun, like the literally happiness(physically?) idk how to describe... while I was sitting there on the jetty thinking abt so many stuffs and I even had this feeling of tearing. Because maybe I thought of how was she like before, just so all over me and how was she like now don't take me as important anymore... And I find that how Brenda behaves and how I behave or wanted her to behave... Isn't right... We are far apart... Very far... And I really can't live in this r/s with me dont care abt anything and how Brenda is now, she really had change.... And hope she would become herself back when she was 2 months ago.... Sigh.. If not I don't know how long could I last, with her... I think maybe it's just too much for me to take her change... Sigh.... And seriously... I'm not fine... Im really not... 我其实很伤心, 我不知我还可以陈到及时。
published @ 1:32 AM , Monday, November 1, 2010 Y Way back into love.
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 Hello! Glad to have you in my blog! Belvin Tay, 17 years old 05/12/1992 Hope you'll have a great time here! Happy guy, your typical guy. HAHA! :D I want to have FREEDOM someday! Totally free from resrictions! Have what I desire and what more? Just wants to spend his life with someone special <3. links
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