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, Saturday, January 30, 2010 Y Sometimes, telling someone a white lie is better than to deliver a painful truth. And I sometimes would rather listen and accept lies... Idk. Maybe im too naive... Too dumb... Too dunnoe everything... Too....... Idk.
Though its painful to know the truth, but the pain soon will numb... I guess... Looking back at ur blog. Everything seem to be a fairytale between me and you. But I LOVE U BABY! Though im in a fairy tale, I dun wanna be awaken. Maybe I just love you so much, so much, so much till I care about everything and anything. The pass, present, and future. Am I really the one ur looking for? Or are u the one I am looking for? Things are bad... Though I might be okay on the outside. But inside me is pain... Shld I even care? Its not me who is experiencing it, I KNOW, but its me, whom love u. Love u so much, just so much... Even now, typing these my eyes are watery. Why am I full of emotions this few days?... I hope tat nothing will come between us. NOTHING! You've brought colours to my life and im really glad that u love me so much. But am I willing to put the past aside?... Idk. So many dunnoe right now... And I really dunnoe. I think things will soon heal bit by bit. Let time heals it. And BABY! I LOVE U! Rose will wither... But my love for u will never. BELVIN LOVES BRENDA! ♥ published @ 9:33 PM , Friday, January 29, 2010 Y Dam down... Idk... Idk how to react. I seem so lost. Dunnoe wat shld I do. Though its me who is only hearing it. But its me who love you. Idk...
Heard it first, didn't wan to believe it, but it turns out to be the truth. Just feeling so down. Didn't wan to leave u tat time, but I dun wan you to see me cry. Dunnoe how to face me and neither do I... Just.... Hias... published @ 6:15 PM , Thursday, January 28, 2010 Y Morning woke up, everything was fine, till the afternoon. When I had work extension and baby actually wanted to meet me for dinner but I can't. And reject her once again. Always im the one who is rejecting her. Sorry baby.
But its work I have. U dun wanna text me, I understand. Ur fed up, dissapointed with me again. But if u were to put urself into my shoes, how would u feel when the one u love thinks for herself and don't care abt things that are around u and what u are facing. Though u wanna be with me, u love me. But things sometime just can't go their ways... Like after work. So fucked up. Texted baby happily, tot she had simmer down already. But gave me crap replies! WTF! Dun treat me like some toy okay! Play with it when u feel like it and just throw it aside when it doesn't entertain u anymore... Anger built up bit by bit. How could u treat me like this, like some dog. Somemore said tat ur fine when im fucked up! Act as if nothing had happened, dun really care about me anymore... Whats wrong with YOU?! or maybe its just me... Hias. But rmb darling! I will always love you!♥ published @ 10:01 PM , Friday, January 22, 2010 Y Morning woke up early and so did Darren. Hope my plan would be successful! :D
Called him first when i was awake and told him to meet me at Prime bus stop at 8.30am. Yup! Met him and time to do grocery shopping! Got a list of things that I wanna buy on a fool scape and followed accordingly. Bought carrot cake up for breakfast and drank hot tea also. Time for the CHEF BELVIN to perform! Haha! Darren prepare the ingredients while I cook the spaghetti and the bolognise sauce. Oh ya! By the way I'm cooking Baked Spaghetti Bolognise(Belvin's style!) :D After preparing everything. Time to try and error! Hah! At first took the left over mozzarella cheese into the microwave oven. I wanted to carve a heart shape out, but the cheese was all watery... So, failed... Then open my fridge, guess what! Found cheese slice! WhooHoo!!! Just got this inspiration suddenly! :) Then went down after to pick baby up from bus stop. Then came up, Darren was playing L4D2 and baby sat and watched him. While I go bathe. Bathe finish, kinda nothing to do, food where prepared already left only yo bake it. Then baby wants to visit bubu :) so went into my room and bubu was on my bed. Slacked and chill inside my room... Not elaborating further. For me and baby to know only :) But Jasper was kinda irritating! ARGH! Light bulb! Keep on asking us to to cook the food! I noe u hungry la, but u must find the right time to disturb mah! lol. I went to bake the food and everything. Then eddy called, so I told Darren to ask baby to follow him down to pick eddy. Then I can have sometime to prepare wat I wanted to do for baby! Heh. They're downstairs my house and I'm doing my final touches. Kinda rush though. But made it in time before they're up. Yup! Acted that everything was normal. Then at last I put my creation infront of baby. I was abit confused that time, not really say confused but I dunnoe use wat words leh. Erh, baby's expression and how she acted wasn't wat I expected. Not being surprise, not impress? Just a thx... After all its my first time I do a thing for baby. Then after eating, played dota and chilled out at my study room. Then Zak finally came. Initially he told me he would be here by 3.30pm but he came at 4.45pm, late. But at least he kept his promise to show up. Thx Zak! Ate dinner at my place also. My mum's cooking! :D Play for awhile more, Zak and Eddy left first, then after, Darren and baby. I sent baby back home, chill awhile and my daddy come disturb again. lol. Then head home, chat with baby and went sleep. LOVE U BABY!♥ published @ 10:01 AM , Thursday, January 21, 2010 Y Nothing much happened in the morning. As usual went work, and go home after. Chat and skyped with baby! :) Then hung up after, cause I wanted to call zak to ask him abt 2mr. Yea! Called him and wanted to plan something nice for baby. Asked him for some advices but none of the ideas seem to us that will be successful leh. But nvm, guess i'll have to try and error 2mr! :)
Hung up soon after... Chat with baby on msn and told her that we couldn't do grocery shopping togther, cause like I said I wanted to plan something for baby! Hehe :D Then baby said that she wants to go off le. Then I said 'orh'... For no reason, baby got ____, said that I always couldn't wait for her to go off! I was like wtf? U wanna go off le... oh okay... U tired le wanna go slp or something le. But how could u say that I couldn't wait for u to go off?! I love ur company! I LOVE YOU! Is only I tot ur really going off le, then tats y I said wat I said. Didn't meant the way u think... I was like... Argh! Watever la! Then went slp after calling zak again to dota and told him wat happened.... LOVE U BABY!♥ published @ 12:09 PM , Wednesday, January 20, 2010 Y This few days, hias... Dam lazy to blog. So many fked up things happen. I felt Fked up, was even more fked up. Lazy to blog the previous days le. I shall start from today. Went work normal, feeling okay. Then as usual, with Swensens promotion, busy like fuck. After work all shacked out... Told myself that, today Belvin's gonna go home. His gonna go home and take a good afternoon nap. But afternoon nap wasn't that good after all. Waken up by my mom a few times. Looked at my phone, saw baby's msg. She wans to lend bike, but sent wrongly. Didn't care went back to slp. Woke up by my mom again, saw Darren's miss call. Then mom came in, said she darren wans to lend my bike. I was like okay... Cause I was like gong gong one, just woke up from slp la!
Then Darren was waiting outside my house le, so I woke up lazily to take the bike for him, plus I brought the pump from my room also. Then my hand laid on my bike's handle, then I realised abt baby's msg, saying she wants to lend bike. So asked darren if baby is going cycling with him while I pump the bike. And ya.. He said yes. Like baby didn't tell me tat shes going cycling with darren or wat... And Darren told me shes downstairs my house! Why she didn't wanna come up? Darren said cause of the bike... Then I was like... The bike prevent her from coming up? WTF LA?! I asked Darren to call her and asked her come up, she doesn't wan to come up! Like dun wan come up, dun wan see me, got mood swing say la! Dun need use some lame excuse! WTF! Aiya, Dun care. Anyway baby was downstairs, so why not go down? Fins out wat happened. Guess wat... Went down, she wasn't downstairs... She went to hide, dun wanna see me, thats all sum up... Asked Darren to call baby ask her to appear. But baby knew tat I was some where, so she hide all the way till Catholic School the bus stop. So ya... Baby really dun wanna see me after all! Like so fked up that time. Im lost and confused... I stood far far away... I guess she saw me, but pretended not to. Just cycled off... I feel like... hias.. Its like always her attitude and stuff make me so terrible. Baby texted me and stuff... Didn't want to reply her, cause I hate her so much at that time. Even told myself tat im gonna ignore her for 2 days. At nite, Darren texted me said he would return the bike to me. And around 8.45pm ask me to meet him downstairs in another 5 mins time to take my bike. Baby suddenly appeared with my bike! I wasn't shock. Wasn't surprise. Just like... hi... Cause I expected baby would come. Then lost of words for tat moment. Baby passed me something. A small plastic bag, with contents in it. Told me to open it when im home. Idk seriously wat to do. Should I send her to the bus stop? Or shld I just say bye bye and go home? But I was cooled then. Send baby to the bus stop. She explain wat happened... And ya. Her bus came and I ride home. WhooHoo! Long time nvr ride on my bike liao! Feel like cycling my bike around the roads before I go up. But nahs... I better go home, so tat I could pei baby on the phone while she walks the dark path home. Ya... Use the com and talked la. Things were fine but then... hias. Everything turn out bad, when I forgot which heart baby gave to me the first time. Sorry. I did not take the things u've done for me into heart. SORRY BABY! Baby turn her MSN status to busy and ignore me. Called her phone for 4 times, didn't pick up. Msn didn't reply. So... called her house phone. Its the only way tat she would pick up. Baby picked up eventually. But sounded as if nothing has happened, not angry, nvr scold me or anything. Just feel disappointed. But I wasn't feeling very comfortable, as baby is not her. Baby told me that shes disappointed and kinda immune already... Sry baby. I didn't mean to not take things into my heart. I was happy that I first receive the heart u noe. I LOVE U SO MUCH! Dun be immune towards me T.T Im sorry baby. Baby fell aslp while I was talking to her and I went to slp soon after. SORRY BABY!♥ published @ 9:44 AM , Tuesday, January 19, 2010 Y Went to work and wats most normal than the norm? BUSY! BUSY! BUSY! Work like hell there. Baby texted me say she will be away from phone as shes going jogging with Darren and ask me to come over after work as planned to go swim at her place after my work.
So after my work, knew that she would be thirsty after her run. Went to 7-11 to buy Pokka Apple Tea! And bought Blueberry Tea for myself. Yup... Took bus to her place. While walking to her place, saw Darren and Deleon. Long time no see.. Deleon! SUP! :D They were going back school to see hows the rugby team doing. But from wat I noe, this batch rugby team sucks... Jan, nash, shafiq and some guys are gone... Yup! So reached baby house, waited for her by the poolside. Kinda dun feel like waiting, cause its like so hot! Feel like jumping into the pool! LIKE IMMEDIATELY! Swam and chilled... And of course ate the cherries brought down by baby! Haha. Throw here and there the left over seeds! Haha! Then went to wash up and head for PRATA HOUSE!!! Sudden craving for muslim food! Heh! I cant really eat spicy, so ordered and ate, my head was perspiring like hell! I see, smell and eat spicy stuff. My head just perspire non stop, till I stop. Ya... Ate le, baby brought me to this park, its not really a park la, and its got a playground there. We both played there, sat on the swing and baby even played a music on her phone and tried to dance! LOL! But dam... The rain came! We heck care the drizzle at first, but it grew into a heavy pour and then we've to run of a shelter. I had to go home at that time. So we ran to the bus stop instead. Baby said that her shirt can seen through when its wet, so its already raining. I stopped, open my bag and took out my Swensens shirt! TADA! Nah! Baby, put this on! :D Yup! Went to the bus stop. In the bus I was actually abit cold. Like im wherein singlet! But okay la. Not very cold la. Alighted, the rain stopped and we chilled at bishan park for awhile. Swung baby and played around. Haha! She was so hyper then! :D LOVE U BABY!♥ published @ 11:34 AM , Friday, January 15, 2010 Y Kinda rush today. Was at home using com, then decided to meet up for a movie before I go work. Baby met me on the bus and we head to Longhouse to have our lunch. Then after head to AMKHUB for a movie. Cirque Du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant. Kinda nice show but the ending was like... O.O then baby send me to work, I went and baby went for dinner with Nicolas, her fren. Baby texted me few minutes before my work end.
"Do u belive that im outside now?" Wats my reaction?! I walked out of Swensens and guess wat?! Shes sitting on a chair. I was happy, not very shocked though, that she came. Like yay! haha! Ya... Then took 166 to send baby home. But chilled at Bishan Park awhile before going home. It was kinda funny when we're slacking there. We we're looking at each other, like really close. Then baby asked, do u wanna kiss me? I at first shoke my head said no, but still, I kissed her. Then after when walking her to her house, she said she doesn't wanna kiss me because is like desperate... but actually she do want and I do wan to! Haha! Kinda funny also. Sent her home, then head home... LOVE U BABY!♥ published @ 9:45 PM , Wednesday, January 13, 2010 Y Today! Baby and I planned to go Bugis street. Go there to get some New Year Clothings. Morning woke up, text baby, she said that she had alr called NP to check on the course thing. So dun need to go there to ask le. I left house early, like 10.30? Ya... Head to baby's place, her dad wasn't home. So went up, saw part of her room, looked clean but thats only part of her room. HAHA! :D
Then took the condo bus to the mrt station. Guess wat! While on the bus, waiting for it to drive, baby's dad drove pass the bus! LOL! Baby was like, OMG! Then bend down, while I slide down to the bus floor. Waiting for him to complete drive pass then took a peep to see that is clear. Dam funny la! Haha! Reached Douby Ghaut le, baby intro me to this cheap and nice lunch place, Acian dunnoe wat la. We went to Chathay to get the tickets for the Alvin and the Chipmunks 2, then head to the place for lunch. After go watch movie lor, the Alvin show was okay, funny la but not that great... Then its time for shopping! Head to Bugis Street after the movie, took wrong bus. Ended in Clark Quay! Then finally reach Bugis. I got 2 berms and baby got 2 tees. Took her quiet a long time before she can decide, whether to get the dress anot. But eventually, she did. Then send baby home after, chilled there then head home. Baby tried the dress at home and find that it doesn't really look nice on her :( and I tried the berms. They're awesome! :D Thx baby for helping me choose!♥ LOVE U BABY!♥ published @ 11:06 AM , Tuesday, January 12, 2010 Y Hello! SUP?! HEHE!
Morning woke up, baby came to my house to eat lunch. Mommy bought back for us. CRAYFISH HOR FUN! NICE NICE! Mmmm! Then after prepare to go interview, with Darren and Baby of course :) Omg! So hot! The weather was like! ARGH! Super HOT! Then went to interview, interview was kinda okay la. After then decided go to VIVO! Go kai kai! Me bought 2 tops from TOPMAN! Baby get anything, went dinner, went to Hong Kong Kim Gary's Cafe. Ordered 2 sets of baked rice! Baby was dam full! Bloated I guess! Went up to the open space at the top of vivo, baby wasn't in a good mood, she suddenly had negative thoughts and worries. Baby was thinking so much till her head ache a little. All I could do that time was to talk and comfort her. Ya... She felt better after hearing my thoughts and listening to hers too :) Then mom called, ask me to go home. Need do the poly thing. So ya... Went to take 166, send baby home first. On the bus and just now at the bus stop. Baby feel like puking!!! OMG! But luckily she didn't. Wat if she did! LOL! I was like holding the Topmen's plastic bag all the time, till she feels better, like incase! LOL! Sent her home! And I head home, then orh orh le... Zzz~ LOVE U BABY!♥ published @ 10:39 AM , Monday, January 11, 2010 Y OMG! Today getting O lvl results! AHHH!!! Worried and some how not worried. Hah! Morning baby! Haha! Woke up in the morning! Used the com for awhile then go prepare.
HAHA! Finally I can where back Peirce Sec Sch uniform! Actually I kinda miss sec sch, when I see students in uniforms, reminds me of sec sch years. Hias, but still have to move on after getting my results! Went to meet baby for lunch first before heading to school! Baby was kinda worried, said that she didn't do well for the exam. And the results might turn out bad. Reached school, ready for results taking! After the crap that Mr Sim said, the results were in baby's hand and I told her not to see first, till I get mine. Then we see together. Opened my result slip, I didn't felt sad, didn't felt happy either. Baby was kinda happy, cause her grades were good, whereas mine is... Okay la. Not very bad, but stil... After everything, baby went home to change and pei me go soccer with frens. She didn't play of course, but see me play. After my game, baby told me that there was this malay guy saying hello to her... What can I do then? Say hello then hello lor... Then left for dinner, ate chye fan and tian ping. Then send baby home, after head home myself. LOVE U BABY!♥ published @ 8:00 PM , Sunday, January 10, 2010 Y Morning woke up quite late. 11 I think. Ya... Tot baby could come my house before I go work. But daddy stayed at home, spoiler la! Hah! But I went out early to pei baby!
Calvin called, he wanted his things back, so baby need return him. Went to hub, met him there. I tot his gonna ask or tell baby things. But didn't, didn't even say a word. Just took watever was his and left. WHO CARES ABOUT HIM! I DUN GIVE A SHIT! SHOO! Walked around at AMK hub, then baby wanted to eat ice cream suddenly. So we went Udders! Wah ha hah!The ice cream there was power! The Tiramisu alcohol ice cream was nice! Dam nice! UMM!!!! The alcohol was so strong! :D Then walked around at velocity, then send baby off then head to work. Baby said that she will ask her daddy to come eat ice cream ltr. At first her daddy agreed, but after dinner, her dad bluff her, nvr come to eat ice cream. Baby was very sad, cause her daddy lied to her. Baby wanted to like let her parents see me. But... Went home after work, listened to sexy chick. Make my head shake! LOL! I like addicted to Sexy chick liao! :D Reached home. Didn't call baby, I guess she sleep liao. 2mr getting O lvl results! OMG! Wish baby, frens, all and myself good luck! LOVE U BABY!♥ published @ 9:36 AM , Friday, January 8, 2010 Y HELLOS!:D
Today woke up early! 8.20am! Cause today is sports day with baby! HAHA! Baby has been asking me go jogging with her. So finally! YAY! Can jog together! First thing I do when I wake up is to text baby morning msg. But... she didn't reply. Texted her twice, guess she was still aslp. Didn't wan to disturb her... But U shld like be excited abt it and will like early early wake up automatically mah. U just continue slping. Dunnoe la... She slept all the way till 10+ and called me when I was at the bus stop, on my way to her place. I slowly walked to her place, and waited at a bench below her blk, waited till i wanna fall aslp. Like u wake up so late, tot u'd be excited and hyper. But nvm la, dun wan ruin anything, actually I was kinda lazy to jog alr. So went jogging at bishan park, jogged till the fitness corner, do some sit ups and pull ups and didn't noe that I still can jog quite a distance. After walked back to baby's place and started to recall back old times, when she was still a normal fren to me. hah! Reached there. Lazy to play badminton liao. Just feel like jumping into to pool. So baby went up took things that we've plan to eat and her swim stuff. Took her quite awhile while i was waiting by the poolside, till I fell aslp for awhile. Baby came dwn and brought foods. Bread, corn, milk, coffee, donut and tuna mayo. She filled the empty breads with tuna and corn, while I went to swim first. Then came up to ate, then baby go change to join me in the pool. Actually baby didn't wan to go into the pool, but at last she did. Didn't wan to show off her kiddy bikini. Oh ya... there were also 2 girls sun tanning with their bikinis. HAH! But didn't bother to look much at them! Actually I did la, but didn't stare! OKAY! My eyes are just for baby! HAHA! <3 Went up to chill by the pool. It was so relaxing! AHH!!! Feel like slping. Baby said that it was cool and nice. Like the whole thing. And shld have more of this next time and of course! I would love to have it with her! :) Then went wash up. Then soon rain! But didn't last long the rain. Baby and I head to my place so I can put my barang barang, teach me how to wear contacts and more important, to let my mom see her! Haha! Wearing and learning contacts was not that diff la. But still I need to practice more before I can be steady with contacts. Didn't dare to wear out. Scared my eye get infected or something. Baby said I looked good in contacts. LOL! Guess so... Dunnoe. Tried the polo tee that baby gave me. It was abit big for me, but still wearable la. Not bad. Then head off to daniel's bbq! GOT BBQ FOOD TO EAT! UMMM!!! :D Saw Darren at bus stop. Going bbq also. He acted like 1 ah beng! Like wtf. He acted dao and cool. Watever la. He was weird la, just not the usual Darren. Then sat the 13bus there. Most stupid! RAIN AGIAN! DAM! During the ride, not only then, baby say I was short... I feel hurt inside everytime u say... T.T But what to do, im like this. This short... Hias. Sometimes really wished I could be taller! Reached east coast soon. Went to the beach. Wrote a BIG BIG! I ♥ BRENDA! On the sand and baby also wrote a BIG BIG! I ♥ BELVIN! It was my first time at the beach with someone I love. It was lovely. Then walked along the beach head to the bbq pit. Ate then go walk walk. Chill out at the beach. There was this time. Very funny! Frens and all went to carry daniel and throw him in the sea. Dam funny! He was screaming like a girl. Haha! Then Darren was emo-ing at 1 corner. I think is abt audrey ba. Maybe he really like audrey la. Then baby's daddy came soon to fetch us. Gave us a lift home. But while waiting for her daddy, I wanted to hug baby, she like siam away, ask me go away, dun... I was like... Then nvm la. Maybe her daddy coming le. Scared he might see. Alighted after 15mins. Thx. But during the journey, very funny. Me and her dun dare talk. Like we type wat we wanna say on phone. Then show each other. Even Darren also. Haha! Reached home, everyone was aslp! Dad was snoring like pig! I went to slp straight! Didn't even bother to bath. Tired la. Anyways, today I had a great day with baby! LOVE U BABY!♥ published @ 8:22 PM , Thursday, January 7, 2010 Y YOYO! Im so happy! HAHA! I woke up with BUBU beside me. No need care my mommy see alr. I even left it on my bed openly, then I go wash up. HAH! Early early woke up, need to call manager to change work time slot. Cause I wanna go poly open house, I wanna go with baby. So early early called workplace, like 8.45am? Ya... Then manager picked up, and let me change to a ltr timing, 5-11. So... YAY! Can go poly open house with baby! She said she would meet us on her condo bus. But she missed the bus, cause she was trying her shirt and 'stuff'. Then baby took bus 52 then we meet her on the bus. While baby was waiting for the bus, texted me say she wanna drink Pokka apple tea. So ran across to buy for her. Bought Yeo's peach tea instead. Cannot find apple tea...
Then met her, baby looked hot man! HOT! HAHA! Then 1st we go SP! SINGAPORE POLY! Reached there, walked at the convention centre. Got exhibition on the course and everything. Got lecturers there to explain. Went in walked abt, see see look look, took brochures and booklets while waiting for baby's fren to come meet us. Baby was somehow unhappy with her friend, keep on touching her. Like her shoulder. Baby told me, and said i didn't do anything about it. I tot the her friend was being friendly only. But... Sry baby! Didn't protect u :( Baby somemore said, I dunnoe how protect ppl... :( Then after took bus to next poly open house. NP! Baby wanted to go there. Like aim to chose NP as her poly. Ya.. Reach there ate at makan place. Go walked around. Saw my last time tuiton fren, who graduated 1 year earlier than me. Then we came across this booth, ppl there were messing with liquid nitrogen! SCARY THING! Baby said if I were to put my finger into that thing. My finger will be gone. INSTANTLY! Baby told me also that she almost lost her finger, when young. I saw them using liquid nitrogen to make the biscuits crispy and make flavoured water into ice cream, then let us try. Then I was wondering if put finger in will gone, then if swallow leh? Will it burn my troat or mouth? So tried it anyway. Its dam cool, when the biscuit is in ur mouth! The smoke like coming out of ur mouth then it was like cold but crispy! WOW! Not bad! LOL! Elaborating so much abt this! haha! :D Then walk for awhile more then I left for work alr. Gave baby a kiss and left. After work, close shop alr. I walked with frens going to take train. Then baby called me. Asked me to looked to the right, so I turned. While I was distracted. Suddenly baby appear on the left and like hug me! I was shocked and happy! :) LOVE U BABY! Like so late liao. Then baby come to fetch me. YAY! Haha! Actually didn't send me home la, is I send her home liao then send myself home, LOL! But I was still glad! :D Though her tat fren tat pei her walk to my workplace from bugis took advantage of her. AGIAN! But I have to thank him for walking with baby. Cause got bangala there. So at least got a guy beside her safer. THX! But u next time, better dun anyhow touch touch hor! Baby's daddy called her trice when we slacking in the park! HAHA! And my mom didn't even called! LOL! Then send her home, then head home. Reached home talked to baby on com and talked abt sports day 2mr! Then after awhile go orh orh. So slpy! Wanna have enough rest so 2mr can wake up early! :D LOVE U BABY!<3 published @ 12:51 AM , Wednesday, January 6, 2010 Y Morning woke up late, but manage to go work in time. I was energetic, go work like F-ROOM!!! HAHA! But... mum text me arounf 1+pm. She told me to call her, URGENT! SO called her. I knew something went wrong le. She told me, my bill why so EX! How ex?! U guess! U would nvr guess how much is it! Confirm u'll shock! Its fking 800+ bucks! WTF!
Of course lor, got this kind of call, confirm no mood to work liao marh. And its about baby and me. Cause its when i called baby when she was overseas, then the IDD card i bought screw up! So worried about it. I went toilet to look at smses, manager followed in. Saw me squatting in the toilet looking at smses. Of course he wasn't happy, scolded me. So i tell him wat happened. Just need someone to talk to. To ask for directions. I was so confused, didn't noe what to do. I called baby, she said would think of a way. But after talking to my manager I felt much better. He really guided me, cause he is a parent also. A felxible 1. Relax relax 1. He made me decide. Gave me guidance. Thx. I called baby, told her my decision. It was quite difficult for me to decide, but I still have to. Its gonna happen and to be found out sooner or ltr. I DECIDED TO TELL MOM AND DAD ABT ME AND BABY! After work planned to ask baby to call me. Then someone tap me at the back. It was baby! I was touched and happy! She came to my work place to pei me home. I need someone beside me, to give me encouragement, to listen to my plans, to lend me her pair of ear. Thx baby. For being beside me when I needed someone. LOVE YOU!<3 Baby pei home, all the way till my house staircase. Baby even said she wanna help me pay part of the bill. But of course, I didn't let her and I dun wan her to. Though I noe she wanna help me, but I just dun wan her to. I went home. Feeling nervous, then sat down with mum, explain everything. Told mommy everything and of course later when my dad comes home from work. Then I told him also. I didn't wan to let my dad noe abt the phone bill thing. HE'LL KILL ME!!! But I told both of them abt wat has been happening. With both me and baby. Told them wats going on. I was so surprised and relive, when they didn't like say... NO!!! U CANT! They didn't forbid but didn't encouraged also. But finally I told them abt it, I dun wanna hide, cuase i really LOVE baby alot! Dun wanna hide anything from anyone else. Though we're not togther yet. But its just not the mommy and daddy that I use to noe. Maybe I old le, no more kid le. So they're like more FANG XING? Guess so... I use to be hiding thing from them everytime and abt anything. But I felt tired. I need to let it out. After everything, I felt like a heavy load in my heart has just been lifted off and I feel so free now. I felt happy :D Online told baby abt it and I feel so free. Now its baby's turn, baby told me that she will only let her daddy and mommy noe, when we're stable and together and I respected her decision. Went to online then talk to baby, while blog. Oh ya! Baby and I played Minesweeper game, on MSN, LOL! She ta pai win me 1 leh. I shall go train! After she went off called her for awhile and sang her song till she doze off and i go for my dota game till 2+ 3 then go slp. Thats all abt today! WOW! Quite a rough day, but somehow smooth day also :D HAH! LOVE U BABY!<3 published @ 1:25 AM , Tuesday, January 5, 2010 Y Today woke up! SO happy! Today going out with baby! YAY! LOVE U! Woke up, like gong gong, went to toilet to wash up, forgot to put BUBU under my blanket. Mom went to iron my clothe for work and left it on my bed! Then of course la she will see! OMG! But she didn't say anything leh. Wierd. Not like her. Maybe she already knew abt it? IDK! Went work, normal lor, not much happenings today, only two colleges qaurreled lor. Quiet fierce. But they were alright after that.
I was so looking forward to end work la. After work, 3.05, rushed to change a shirt, then go meet baby. Shes got a dental appointment 3.20 at AMK poly clinic. So rush there, as fast as I could, to meet baby. Weather was so hot, perspiring! I made it in time to meet baby, before she went in. I said I would go in with her, into the room, to pei her marh. But didn't, cause she didn't want, baby say is pressurising. Went to wait outside, thought could grab a quick nap. Then baby came out in less than 10mins... Told me that for her case, she need go to a bigger clinic for a small operation. Yup! Then baby pei me go Raffle's Medical Clinic, cause I taking jab(Typhine Vaccination), helps to improve ur body's immunity la. Thought it would like hurt alot. But its like ants bite! NO KICK LA! Haha! Then after plan to go buy baby's contacts stuff then go kai kai. Baby bring me go choose earrings, ask me whether look nice anot. Then after we walk through blks to go eat porridge! Fan Chye Porridge! Not bad la the porridge. Somehow, I like the fishcake, not bad. Then after meal, very funny, baby saw my Puma shoes, then it reminds her of something. Reminds her of her inner wear, Is also Puma brand also. She drew it out for me when im home online! LOL!  Then after walk walk, came pass this construction site. Baby was like hyper, then ask me do dumb dumb things, she asked me to go stand at the construction site wall and shout out loud the words on it! Then wat! I shout la! LOUD LOUD! CRAZY! HAHA! Then chilled at the playground behind baby's kindergarden. At first we were fine, but then call from my mom came, made me feel like. Argh! Baby like wasn't happy with me. Like evertime ruin atmosphere. But we both felt happy la, when we left, dun wan to felt down leaving there. I was happy! Idk why! Suddenly! Maybe baby brought my mood up! Ya! She did! <3 Then took cab to baby's place, send her home. Then after go home. Baby ran back down after me, cause she forgot her stuff. Left it in my bag, came to take it. She was confused then, like why suddenly I so happy. LOL! I happy then u will be happy mah! Heh! Went home online! Baby slept earlier than me. First time! HAH! Went dota with PIGGGY and XiiaoHand! OWNAGE!!! LOVE U BABY!<3 published @ 1:18 AM , Monday, January 4, 2010 Y Didn't able to sleep well ytd nite. For the whole day,ytd, I was thinking about you. Felt terrible... ARGH! Dam! Hias... Morning woke up text baby, she still didn't reply T.T Makes me feel even more like him. I cannot take it alr. I called u, I was angry and sad at that moment. Mixture of feelings...
And u talk to me like it was nothing like that. I was thinking, did u did that on purpose, to make me feel what u felt? Baby gave excuse, said she was busy, said she was tired and dun feel like replying me. I wonder is she hiding anything from me anot, I felt that she was. But if she doesn't wan say, what can I do?! Hias... Told baby that I'll go meet her. like now, immediately... Then baby like dun wan. I tot things were like going to end, I was seriously... Baby didn't even tell me that she was going out. At least tell me la! So i know where u are, what ur doing marh. Dun throw me 1 side like that leh! DAM! Met her, talked... Things weren't that good then. I feel like crying... Baby actually cried. Sry baby. But I know things were rough yesterday, sry. Actually I was the 1 that should be blame. Cause of the forget thing. But things were healing slowly, but surely. Went off to work, feeling better, at least she didn't dun wan to see me. Work was abit better. Text baby along the way, told her about our swensens promotion. Didn't even thought about it, baby, jasper, hung wei and darren came to my work place! Swensens to eat and of course baby want to come to see me :) I was happy la of course but not so shock as the last time when baby came with her cousins and brother. Yup! Got nagged by manager, cause I kept on talking with baby and frens. Haha! But nvm! Like I care! Whatever la. They left after saying bye bye. Gave baby a kiss, Hung wei was dam funny. He want a kiss also! WTH! I said u come! U wan u lai. Dun run away can liao. Hah! He ran of course! JOKER! Continue working lor, work till 10! Tired la! Went home, still wanna talk to baby! Talk and chat. During then, she fell aslp 4 times! Baby tired la... Fell aslp soon after. LOVE U BABY! <3 published @ 12:42 AM , Sunday, January 3, 2010 Y Hias... Idk where to start. Im so down and tired. Just back from work... I today,
had neither mood nor energy to work. I spilled water, drop plates and got fking ULCERS! Cant even speak properly. Hias... Things turned out really bad today :( Today is the day baby returns from Beijing and I forgot that she'll be back today! :( Baby arrived here early in the morning when the sun is still half rised, text me and I was still asleep. Dam! IM REALLY SRY BABY! SRY SRY SRY! I was really tired and stress up from work, and forgot about today. Idk how to put it in also :( I woke up, saw baby's msg. Still thiking tat she is still at china! Hias... How dumb of me. Baby called me while i was having breakfast and preparing to go work. So I told baby I would call her later, when im on the bus going to work. So left house, took bus and called her. We talked and things went bad. Real bad. baby told me I talked to her like she was a normal fren to me and I actually forgot about her return. Sry baby. Work went bad also, no mood, totally strength-less, thinking about u every now and then. Got baby's msg which made me felt even worst. Even got scold by manager for daydreaming. Hias... During break time I texted baby, whether is she better... Didn't reply me :( Thoughts were running in my head the whole night. Why didn't u reply me?... And i dun belive in someone not attending to his or her phone for a few hours and therefore not reply someone. I didn't dare to text u much, didn't dare to call u. Worried that u might be fustrated. I felt like i was him. The him whom u've ignored his msgs and calls. I don't wanna compare myself to him, but I felt..... hias... But thx to Darren... He made me feel better. Someone whom I can turn to. Thx. Go slp le... Tired... Nites baby! LOVES! I hope baby will feel better 2mr and dun ignore me pls. Sry baby... LOVE U BABY! <3 published @ 11:19 PM , Y *31.12.09*
OMG!!! NEW YEAR’S EVE is so fucking boring! No where to go! Baby! I MISS U LOTS! A LOT!!! How I wish u’d be here with me today… Hias. But come to think of it, I also some how dun look forward to go out with u today if ur here in SG. Cause cannot stay with you for countdown, cannot stay with you to see fireworks, cannot stay with u till u reach home… Hias… But hope you have fun in Beijing :) LOVE U BABY!<3 published @ 11:18 PM , Y *26.12.09*
I woke up with swollen eyes, I looked at the phone, though u would text me but didn’t. Waiting for ur msg the whole moment, the whole till I eventually went to slp at night. U said u would text me when u 1st land there. But nvm maybe u couldn't? Due to somethings? I ate the tarts u gave me! SO FULL! HEH! Now waiting to go to work which starts at 5pm ends at 9pm. I LOVE U BRENDA!!! ALWAYS WILL! I MEANT WAT I SAID! <3 LOVE U BABY!<3 published @ 11:18 PM , Y *25.12.09*
Morning work up, energy-lessly went to work, dam tired… LUCKILY! I was given a work post which has lesser work load. Can slack slack :) Baby went out to her gandma’s house and actually wanted to come meet me, but couldn’t come. Cause went shopping with family. After work called baby then took bus to her house to meet her. Reached there, baby wasn’t home yet, so waited at the park. Then rain… waited under the bridge and looking at bangala. Then she finally reach home I went into her condo to meet her, took her quite awhile to come down. Then slacked at the other block <3. Then after I went home while she head home continue to pack her stuff for the trip. She lent me her BUBU! A cute bear bear :D It was to big to put it inside my bag! So decided to hold it on my hand, everyone was like staring at me. LIKE SO WEIRD!!! Haha! Then reached home bath and cooked instant ramen to eat. Ate le, called baby, wan to spend the rest of the time with her on the phone. I promised to pei her on the phone with her till she flys. When shes on the way to airport, we texted. But I fell aslp while texting her! OMG! Sry baby! I was dead tired then. But luckily I woke up in time to call her back. During the convo, idk why, tears ran down my cheeks, it just kept running T.T. Baby sot of knew that I cried, she asked me through text, if I was. I told her I wasn’t, cause I dun wan her to feel sad and down before she depart. I JUST LOVE U SO MUCH BABY! Guess I can’t bear to be part from u! Even for 8 days! It’d seem like forever. Then baby bought the plane and soon after hanged up as the plane is going to take off le. I cried even more and harder! We texted each other till baby was in the air and heading to a cold place. Far far away. But I think she won’t be as bored as she was during the previous China trip, cause got Michelle and her cousin! CRAZY GIRLS!!! Then I hugged BUBU to slp! HAHAH! LOVE U BABY! <3 published @ 11:17 PM , Y *24.12.09*
Morning woke up then go work, as usual, but its Christmas eve! Got work! Dam sian! Baby and Darren came to my work place to meet me. Cause Darren buying Christmas gift, me and baby go out. Darren went to Popular to buy gift, I think it was for Audrey, if I’m not wrong. Then I was penniless! No money! Got la…. 2 bucks! WTH LA! I dam poor lor! LOL! :D Then I ask Darren to lend me money 1st, cause u noe, go out with baby no money, very the what 1 leh. So ya lor, I texted Darren to lend me money, but wth I send wrongly! OMG! I sent it to baby! Then she saw marh of course! I was seriously dam ps at that time! Let baby see my moneyless side… :( We’ve got a hard time deciding where to go… cause again! RESTRICTIONS!!! Not all blame resrictions la, I was puo puo marh marh la. HEH! But we decided to go to the airport! :) Baby always wanted to go there. Darren left for bus and we took a train there. Reached there, was dam cold!, idk wat to do there… we walked around the shops that were up just for the Christmas period, came across this shop which makes some kind printed tags. Quite interesting and were deciding where to go for dinner after. We had 2 choices, TCC or POPPYE! Of course lor, ex! We went to Terminal 1 to see hows the Poppye there, baby said that the environment was better there. Lol. We reached there didn’t really go find the Poppye, just walked around and we came across this quiet and dim place. The atmosphere was nice, so we sat down, on the floor and talked. At first, when we were walking about, i was talking about my ‘xing shi’ and stuff. So when we sat there, I told a lot of things and she told me a lot of things. I was abit sadden at that time, but soon after I was okay liao. Then after, headed back to terminal 3 for TCC! We’re confused by the TCCS at terminal 3 la! Got 2 TCC there! We went to one(the different 1 from what we saw before going to T1), the environment there was not that nice. So we went to find the other TCC. Lol. Actually baby said she wanted to sit on the trolley, then I’ll push her like going NEED FOR SPEED! But then she dun wan, too many ppl, ps la! HEH! So we arrived at TCC! Ordered food and drink, took pictures, but wasn’t nice… Baby had to pay for the food cause of my poor-ness. I felt loved and she very zhao gu me :) LOVE HER! <3 After that we went to the shop which do custom printed tags, the tags we made got our photos on it, wasn’t that perfect… Then took a cab back to baby’s place, chilled in the park(not elaborating), from Bishan Park to baby’s house must cross a bridge marh. While crossing we saw a ‘GHOSTS!’, a ghost u and I know! Then she head home and I went home. Got lectured by dad for coming home late… then talk to baby on the phone till late late, like real late! Cause shes going off 2mr le… LOVE U BABY! <3 published @ 11:15 PM , Saturday, January 2, 2010 Y *23.12.09*
Baby went to dental this morning and later she came to meet me and Darren for lunch and also to pass me wallet. Actually Darren and her met up at Prime bus stop 1st cause I need the keys to lock my door which is inside my wallet. So they met and came up to my house and also passed Darren the egg tarts. We went down kpoitiam for lunch, baby and I ate Chye Fan while Darren head to the western stall to buy seafood spaghetti. While eating, saw Pauline and Carmen. They were going to IKEA and then saw my tuition/primary school friend. Soon after they left. I told Darren that I’ve help him to download Chinatown Wars(psp game) liao, so asked him whether wan come my house to transfer the game. Then we came out with this idea that why not later both Darren and baby come up to my house! Haha! So they came to my house after Darren went home to take psp and baby followed Darren. At my house we did nothing much, watched some crazy clips! NUMBNUTS, CHICKS VS DICK! So on…. LOL! During then Calvin texted baby… I was alittle down then. Like so fucking irritating, keep on asking baby wan go out anot. Then I cannot say yes or no marh. Cause I also dun noe I can go out anot on the day. Then if I dun let her go out, like dam selfish. i didn’t want to bother much la, just kept quiet. Baby comforted me and said he wouldn’t go out with him, cause she only wants me. I could hardly smile, cause I had lots of resrictions and have little time to pei her. But I was better when Darren and baby left my house. Didn’t do much after, had dinner, used com, chat and stuff….. LOVE YOU BABY! <3 published @ 12:26 PM , Friday, January 1, 2010 Y *22.12.09*
Morning, baby came to my house to pass me egg tarts that she bought back from Macau. After my mum go out la of course! Heh! We slacked for awhile. Then we head to Cineleisure mall to get tickets for Avatar! Unfortunately there wasn’t any couple sits left. So we bought tickets to view the movie at The Chathay. We’ve got a hard time deciding what to eat, so at last we decide to go Billy Bombers! I realized! OMG! I ate lesser than baby! Haha! Idk… maybe shes got a huge appetite after returning from China. After lunch, went for movie. The show was great! DAM! Graphics so zai and the ‘Blue Monkeys!’ Haha! :D We took 162 bus home after the movie. Baby alighted 1st to meet her dad for dinner while I carried on to my bus stop. Guess what! I left my wallet in baby’s bag! Forgot to take, only when she called me and told me then I realize! But luckily I’ve got my EZ-link card with me. :) LOVE YOU BABY! <3 published @ 5:15 PM , Y *21.12.09*
Today is the day baby returns from china! YAY! Missed her so much! LOVE HER!!! <3 Baby will be reaching Singapore at 5.30pm and luckily tat day I don’t have to go to work. In the morning I stayed at home, as usual drink milk and use the computer, then baby text me, say shes on the way to Macau airport and she might get a chance to use the computer there. Initially I’ve planned to leave house at 1pm to the Christmas chalet, but I stayed till 2pm to wait for baby to online. But then at 1.40pm baby texted me said that got others using the com then cannot online le. So I went to the chalet alone at 2pm. I reached there at around 3.30pm then slacked there and helped out abit. Help Nurul go carry the food and went shopping at Fairprice for some BBQ stuff. At 4+pm Darren and I started heading to the airport, actually Darren went back to the chalet to change 1st! Took dam long for him to change as I waited at the bus stop for him and 2 buses passed! Argh! DAM! We took mrt to the airport, Olivia and Zhi Ying were on their way there also, we met them on the shuttle bus to the budget terminal. Baby texted me said she reach Singapore already, then also texted Darren. Thought I was at work, she grew ‘suspicious’ and ask Darren did I came. We acted, Darren dam funny! Finally baby walked out of the custom with her bro, grandma and grandpa. But when she saw me, idk whether is she surprised or not, maybe no bah. Baby gave me a hug, with her grandma beside looking! LOL! Then we headed to the chalet and she was uncomfortable in her jeans. We ate there, the BBQ stuffs! Then after we both go kai kai! There was a warehouse sale. I bought a pair of slippers for $10 :D We went to the beach by the park after that. It was quite romantic for me. LOL! Chilled at the beach while we enjoy the breeze! AHHH! Smell of the sea! HAHA! Then Jasper called wanted his slippers back so we went back to the chalet then it rained! DAM! We wanted to get our stuffs and head back to the beach till baby’s dad comes :( But nvm, we went to chill at E!hub till her dad comes to fetched us home. Her dad was hilarious la! He sudden spoke: ‘SO YOUNG MAN! NOW HOLIDAY ALREADY, DO WAT?’ I said I was working and then continued to talk for awhile till I’ve reached home. Thx to her dad for driving me home! LOVE U BABY! <3 published @ 5:14 PM |
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